I am honestly not intending to be antagonistic here - in fact quite the opposite, but you've just spent the last few days telling me and others about how you don't have any confidence. If you actually believed in your worth, then you would have confidence because those two concepts are synonymous. I think you believe you are a good person who is worthy of love (and I agree with that) but that isn't the same as owning all that you have to offer in such a way that it comes across to others.