I'm a "breast gal" myself often finding that a highly attractive part of women that I'm interested in. And yes, I'm a bit, not confused, because I know why, but still so confronted by this very internalized patriarchal construct that I have to hide my breasts/nipples to be respectable.

The first morning at the resort, I wore bikini bottoms and cover-up to the pool. There were probably 200 women with their tops off when I got there, just hanging around and in the pool. In that context, it was pretty easy to just take my cover-up off and feel comfortable. When everyone around you is partially naked (or naked) then it very quickly becomes non-sexual. It's just what everyone is doing. The fact that there were all shapes and sizes of bodies and breasts made it really easy to just accept it as no big deal. The context makes all the difference.

The next day we had a pass to go to their sister resort which was fully clothing optional. It takes a bit to come out of the bathroom into the 11 am sun sober, with nothing on, but again, if everyone else there is doing it, than it's the normalized thing.

https://medium.com/sensual-enchantment/a-day-at-a-clothing-optional-resort-e853a82f9737