I appreciate you being so real and honest about this. I don't think there's anything wrong with having these feelings. The issue only arises when they are acted upon in ways that are inappropriate or predatory - and it's clear you've done none of that. But, yeah, even being able to talk about having those feelings is considered taboo, which is a shame. I think it would be a lot healthier to normalize the feelings, and then have good boundaries on the actions.