This does sound like a TF relationship, and also that you are pursuing it as sensibly as one can under the circumstances. It’s my belief that your TF will never be your pair bond that you settle down with and raise a family, but that doesn’t mean that they can’t still be a very important part of your life. In fact, I think one of the reasons for such relationships is to demonstrate that love is bigger than just the way that we’ve traditionally imagined it. Best of luck on your journey❣️