When I was struggling with these same feelings, I found healing in a place that I never expected - in a swinger's club. Women could walk around in all kinds of states of undress or half-dress and it was safe to do that. No one thought you were asking for anything other than to express your sexuality. A lot of people don't even go to those clubs to hook up. They go to be able to be themselves in a safe environment with other like-minded people. If covid ever lets up, I highly recommend it. That was where I reclaimed my sexual self from the world who had told me it wasn't mine.